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Thursday was a bore. Terrible. It was raining and I could feel the cold winds whipping me every time I look out of the window. I finally cleared my 'O' level stuff. Yeah, finally. Now what's left of it are two boxes of textbooks and materials which I may use it in the future for some uses like references for tuition or lessons in junior college if I happen to make it.

Blah. Clean and somewhat tidy place now. Great.

It's Friday and I went over to Syafiq's place to practise with him and Zul. I really hope things turn out well. Today, I realized the fun and joy of playing in a band. It's really amazing.

2012. It's a fantastic movie. It's worth the money and time. It sets viewers thinking. For me, I wouldn't say it focused more on the end of the world but rather, the relationship between people; How all of us face the same big problem and how we all work together in a way to solve it. It's really touching. Graphics were good and all that tragedy and devastation almost made me cry. It was so.... full of grief.
Well, hahaa, it's not going to happen. Nobody can predict the future that's for sure. All that Mayan thingy hahaa. Exaggeration.
I enjoyed today. Here's the list of people who went for the movie: Weilian, Eugene, Shawn, Brandon, Leonard, Keith, Zhenzhang, Asyraf, Syafiq, Yinghao, Alan, Ben, Vanessa and me.
Haha. It was supposed to be a buffet thing but due to me being last minute. There was a need for change of plans. I want to thank all these great people (listed above) today for helping me in a way or another in planning this activity and making it possible. Thank you.

Blah Blahs. This is good news for me. I'm going for a trial with my piano teacher-to-be (possibly) tomorrow! Hooray! I'm finally taking lessons. Time to soar! I'm going to break the piano. Hee.


Some times, you thought you saw somebody you knew from the back but that person isn't who you thought. I missed people. I missed looking at their faces, missed talking to them. I missed somethings but it's complicated.
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I had a kiss in my dream.

I was playing street captain's ball in my another dream. It was funny and ermm... interesting.
Ha. Imagine the the show "Polo Boys" turns into people playing captain's ball. Imagine people playing it at a modified void deck. Imagine I'm one of the players in a team consisting of people like Brandon, Shawn, Weilian, Eugene, Daniel, Joe and Woohian and so on and on..... Haha. Kind of a joke heh.

Here it goes in short:
I'm a noob player being kicked out of the team for being the noobest player ever seen. I didn't made it to the reserves and feeling down, I decided to quit. Then the team was having a match on that day. Hahaha, here comes the hero-saves-the-day iconic part. One of the players whom I don't know really but I think is Imran(primary school friend) injured his leg and needs to be replaced. However, the reserve players were all having a stomachache or something. So I decided to go help out and the coach reluctantly let me joined in the game unofficially. HAHA.

I managed to block some shots and intercept a few and that's all I can do while the rest-Star players doing their famous moves and showing off their skills. It's really funny. My team eventually won and yeah and that's when I think I woke up.

Okay okay, it's full of crap and nonsense.


Retro theme for prom. Isn't that a ridicule? It's so difficult to get those 70's clothing.
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Why is it okay for them and not for me?

Don't you feel that way sometimes? It's like when people do something. People will just ignore them for it's okay and it's the norm for these people. Then there comes the times when you want to start doing something or just try to do the norm, people will criticize, make fun of you and do a lot of nasty stuff to make you feel totally bad and .... just bad will do.
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Thank God for helping me throughout the O levels.

I'm blogging again for goodness' sake. The only problem I have now is originality. It's not 100% for my blog. Sighed. Haha. It needs some pictures to brighten it up. It'll come soon for sure.

Okay. . .
I don't know what to feel. I seriously don't want to disappoint everybody, my loving family, my great friends and the hard working teachers. I really want to go to Junior College but I have some uncertainties with my results.

Next, I was talking to one of my old old friend from primary school who's from SJI and just finished O's. I feel so inferior talking to him. All that smart aura, you know? I feel so puny. We caught up with each other and enjoyed the chat. Oh... 4 years without contact. Can you believe that?

I have things that cannot be told to the whole world. Do you? Why is it that you can't tell? We all have our reasons.

I just miss all that. Miss the moments. It's both sad and weird. It shouldn't be that way but yet it happened. I waited but it left so what's going on?

Here's a shout out:
Looking for a piano teacher in Singapore around the West Zone. The rates have to be reasonable. Any recommendations?

"Things happened for a reason..." said one of my pal, Weilian. Indeed, true. It kept ringing in my ears.

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Keep Out for the Momento!
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A month or so without blogging and insomnia sets in, engulfing my life force. Is blogging my only outpost of relieving myself off my miseries?

Prelims are over now. I don't know what I've been doing this past month. I've been wasting much precious time idling away in the room using the computer or lying on the couch watching series of television sitcoms and etc. All were last minute preparations. I'm not as hardworking as you think I am. Shut up. My life is a bore and I don't know whether to appreciate it or distaste it.

I feel so down now. Chronic depression? Did I missed the chance of not venting my disappointment, my anger then or is it my mind playing games with me. I feel so tired. All I see around me are beaming faces. Is it for real? Though I would like to blame others for the state I am now, should I ask myself if the problem is simply me? Yes, for goodness' sake. You're your own obstacle, you fool.

Steamboat party. I have to admit it was a great deal of fun and kudos to Brandon for making it a success. It's something one shouldn't miss yet some conditions apply.

I want to cry. There's so much things to mourn about. I had problems with myself. I had two dreams which I shouldn't have thought of. Different person, similar scene. It's horrible. It's wrong. It's something I shouldn't even do. Nightmares. Is this a problem or is it part of me? There's nobody to talk to about because there isn't anybody whom I know I can relate to. I questioned the origin of this problem and it's like it just happened out of no where. There must be a cause for this. Nobody knew and none will ever know the truth.

I'm lost now. What should I do? Teachers expect too much from me. I don't how to face them when I get back the prelims. Am I going to lie to them? How will they know if I'm really lying anyway? However, there are times where lies are real. It's simply real yet nobody took it seriously.

I want to help others in their studies but are they really benefiting from me? I'm the reason why they're not studying, I figured. I should stop now.
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It's been two whole weeks and I've got somethings to say for this is what I feel and nobody can lecture me or go against.
There are the bitches and bastards. Be it large or small, these people are really inconsiderate in my eyes. For goodness sake, can't you people just move the heck away for others to sit? Fancy some leaders you call that. It's really a disgrace to see people being so selfish just to sit to their friends in other classes and neglecting the repercussions of their acts of shame.
If the root is bad but the plant looks good, would you cut away the bad part?
If you have a poisoned limb, would you choose to keep it or amputate it?
Then if you have really bad rascals in school, would you keep or expel them even if countless of chances are given and yet no change in them?
There are the good and the bad. I may see people as bad and on the hand, people may see me as bad too. Blame me or say I'm having prejudice but that's my impression of them. People may be kind-hearted but actions speak a lot louder than words. You are the one doing the actions. I'm the one interpreting. Or is it my lack of interpreting skills?

I have this issue with classroom cleanliness. I believe that if you eat, don't make a mess. That's so simple but there seems to be ignorant shits that just stuff wrappers/trash here and there. Can you people be more responsible. I respect those who changed and decided to be responsible of their rubbish but those who don't, you're a disappointment.

Do you think it's fair to withstand all the clutter in your room when its producer is your brother? Same thing applies to classroom. You have a big box and to be frank, you have almost got two tables for you to put your stuff. Why can't you put your stuff nicely? It's like you don't bother to keep or do your homework for some subjects and just stuff it somewhere. Same thing goes to that A* science student in front of me. Next, I should have reported everybody who littered right? Isn't that more fair don't you think? If you know your friend beside you is littering, get him to dispose it the proper way. Yes, I'm at fault too for not getting the one beside me to stop throwing trash out the window but I'm going to change. Hate me all you want if you feel that I'm somebody who reported you for your misdeeds. I know I'm right and you're absolutely wrong for sure.

Copy cats and followers. I don't like these people. Firstly, they have no sense of originality and I find it disgusting to do that just to fit in or make friends. I consider myself a copy cat too. I do mimicry others and yeah, I find myself a fool for doing that. If one is to improvise something and not copy, well, I like that.

Next, followers. These people who are willing to stay back till late just to follow you. I don't like to be followed and obviously don't want people to wait for me because that makes me feel like I'm obliged to do something for them. Wait, wait wait. Can't these people just spare the company they desire so much and just go home and study? Hey, I would really want to go home early I could not to study but rest and complete daily's assignments, and after that perhaps study?

All skill 3 are over now. Three more weeks to prelims.
Yesterday's National Day Celebration was good. It's different from the past three years. The band was good, really good. The guitar arrangements and the drums were fantastic. It's a pity that the two singers were still quite young and couldn't sing loud and not on pitch enough. Kudos for the courage to sing in front of everybody. Ice-cream for everybody.

The lameness in me is starting to wear off. Nobody's buying for it. I guess it's back to serious time then.
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